I have been on since September ....

Sorry guys, I totally forgot my password!!

Oh well, I didnt have much to report anyway, except the weight has come back!! FFS its bloody awful! Can I send my body away for modifications? It needs something lol Nothing works right!!

Never mind!

Am thinking of joining Rosemary Conleys in the new year, mainly as in the past I lost weight with it.

I may not be able to do the exercise, as just walking round is hell with the cluster migraines (that are back with a vengeance!)

I dropped 3 stone in 3 month with the class, then this pcos really got a grip and the weight crept back, as it does lol

Oh well, onwards and upwards as they say xxx

uurrrggghhh

So fed up, feel I have got a stalker.

Why do they constantly lie to me?? every time I turn on the puter, there are emails, pm on facebook, or messenger pops up and it is doing my tree, like they are sitting in wait for me.

So now they have the same ailment too, wonder of wonders.

I have got a lot to deal with at the moment, and I sure as hell dont need the hassle of listening to anyone else going 'woe is me'.

I am not usually like this, but this person is doing my tree. They say nothing positive at all, it is all negative. I cant do this, cant do that, etc. Well, no-one can do it for you!!! No one else is there shoving the crap down your neck, you are obviously more than capable of doing that yourself!


I am this close _ to telling them to leave me the fcuk alone!!!

Arrgghhhhh

what a bloody day

Had a really shit day, and feel even shittier.

Had my sis-in-law texting me, as she and my brother have had a falling out, he wasnt answering texts or emails, so worried about him as he was supposed to be home yesterday after a month away, to be home for an hour before leaving in a bad temper.

Arrrgghhh I could bang their bloody heads together.

I have had no sleep, worrying about him, so am exhausted, then with the texts etc, I got upset, and turned into the human dustbin.

Made quad choc brownies for the kids, not supposed to have any as full of dairy, so I feel really ill at the moment as I had 3 pieces before I realised what I was doing.


Thought I had my comfort eating under control, but apparently not.


Really really pissed off at myself.

I need to get a hang on myself again, and regain control.

someone please give me a kick!

I go and see the gynae on the 9/9/09.

I wanted there to be a big difference in my weight from seeing them in January. Just one bloomin stone! is all I have lost!! And that is from the injections they gave me to shut my ovaries down, as I have severe pcos, and my hormones were so far out of alignment I suffered from cluster migraines, but without a day off for over a year, as one was going, another was coming in, with the pain only varying in strength. (before the injections, I struggled to lose 2 stone in 2 years)

The migraine came back nearly 3 weeks ago, when the injections started to wear off, so I havent had a day off from pain, and my weight has gone up a bit too, despite going to the gym 3 times a week, for an hour at a time, plus walking there and back too!!!

So am starting core today, and seeing if that can help, but I fear it wont do any good, as my body doesnt work like it should.

Now when I go back, will they re-start the injections for another 9 months, or will they say sod it, and do a total hysterectomy?? I dont care either way to be honest. They had to confer with a specialist in London to find treatment as it was! It was some big shot in London that told them to give me the injections!!


Arrgghhh I hat my body!!! Why wont it work properly??

buggered it up again!!!

Sorry, but ballsed it up again!!!

I seem to be doing the drunkards way of losing weight, 3 lbs on, one pound off!!! Not exactly true, just stayed the same for the last 2 weeks, after using advice given, and having a blow out, and gaining instead of boosting my loss!!! aarrggghhh

Doesnt help that the injections are definitely wearing off, and I have been getting pains similar to period pains, oh well, maybe it wont be long before I actually get a period, havent had one since January!! bliss!! lol

Joined the Christmas Countdown Challenge to buck me up, but feel that I am disappointing the team be have had a sts this week. Eh?? First week and I get a sts. bugger.

I really need the bloke that does the big brother voice over to read this to you, it may make it more exciting!! pmsl

what a day

I am sat here, in tears.

I have had about 6 points today. Really sick. My head is fit to burst, and the gynae doesnt see it as an emergency, and I have to wait till my appointment in september, all the while I am existing in agony. I cant say living, as my life is on hold again.

I really cant go on like this anymore.

I know being upset is making the migraine worse, I have got the aura closing in on my left eye. Pretty soon I will lose my vision to it.

What if they wont give me the injections again??? Surely they wont stop the treatment that obviously works?? Will they???

I cant get to the gym in this condition, I am unsteady enough on my feet, never mind risking going in the car.


And to top it all, my neighbour is having her floor repaired, and they have been banging most of the day, and the noise and vibrations are going right through the house. Worse thing about living in a Victorian Terrace!!!


At least I may lose weight with not being able to eat - hang on - no I wont - this is me we are talking about. I could be in the Matrix with no mouth, and still pjut on bloomin weight!

sorry

Sorry it has been a while since I posted something. The shit has hit the fan as they say. Been trying to understand why someone I thought I knew, would go to such desperate lengths as to do Celeb slim, slimfast and alli, all at once, with no food whatsoever.

Really threw me off plan, I can tell you.

I didnt expect it from her, and she kept her distance so I wouldnt catch on to what she was doing, so I couldnt stop her.

Oh well, she is home now, and is seeing a shrink for help, and blames her gp for putting her under so much pressure to slim down.

Anyway, back to my task. I am so pissed off at the mo, as despite going to the gym 2/3 times a week, and writing absolutely everything that I eat or drink, I have sts for the last 5 weeks.

So fed up, I really am, all that effort for nothing!!!!

So if anyone knows why...... answers on a postcard please!!!! lol

Seriously, I dont know what to do for the best. I am working my hardest and getting no reward for the hard work, and at times is is such a bloody slog to go to the gym, and I did not enjoy it yesterday, I still put my all into the sessions, as what is the point of paying and not working hard???


uurrrgggghhhh such is life I suppose.

well we shall try again

Been on my hols, on a canal boat through the midlands. Been to Rugeley, Stafford, Burton on Trent just to give you the general location of where we traveled. Got back saturday at just before 4pm, and had washing on the line by half 5!!! Have eaten my wat round the midlands, saw Ice Age 3 and Transformers 2, and have got sunburn, which is still a bit painful, and a monster of a cold sore on my bottom lip - question?? if sunshine causes cold sores to flare up, why are they called cold sores??

Am not feeling too good though, have got headache, very bad mood swings, and am now feeling very teary. Have been the waling dustbin all day.

Have put weight on, sneaky peek confirmed it. Have had to get a belt for my pants though as nearly lost them!!!

here we go again

Well, today has been a shit day.

Got up with a bloody migraine!!! AGAIN!! The damn injections were supposed to stop them, and the monthly injections were doing the job nicely, then the hospital talked me into having the injection that lasted 3 months, and the migraines are back.

So not happy. Not been through the door all day, dont know if I am going to go to the gym tomorrow, as they usually last for a couple of days.

AARRGGGHHH!!! I have had enough. Ended up with hubby going to the chinese for tea, so have had beef fried rice and curry. So not WW friendly.

Plus mum-in-law has been, wanting hubby to print some pictures off for her, all 65 of them, and we dont have any ink in our printer so couldnt do it, and she was ossing for me to take her to town tomorrow, but I didnt bite to any of the hints. Sorry, I am not usually a bitch, but after taking her to every hospital appointment, plus swimming most of last year, she is going swimming with someone else, and has never asked me to go with them. My hubby reckons it is cos I wont go into a pub/cafe/restaurant for lunch after. I dont see the point in doing that, nor can I afford to do so. She had a big pub lunch of lasagna and garlic bread with a muffin for afters, all for the lovely calorie count of 3500!!! When they are going for lunch 4 days a week, she is having at least 4 days extra calories a week, and she wonders why she is piling the weight on! And she is diabetic, and has had heart surgery, plus was given a 3 month course of xenical, from which she only lost 4 lbs!!!


Sorry, had a really bad day, and needed to rant a bit

stunned

Yep, I am!!!

I was in the gym for 10am this morning!! Yeah, I know, me and the gym and early morning, never gonna happen, but it did!!! LOL

Oh well, I keep trying.

And my so called mate didnt even have the calls to apologise for her behaviour.

She said that I didnt know how hard it was to lose weight, yeah right, she knows it took me 2 years to lose 2 stone, and have managed another stone so far this year, yet, I dont know how hard it is to lose weight!!

Seeing as she has known me for 20 years, and she knows I have struggled with my weight due to illness, it beggars belief!!!

And there she was, even after the quack has put her on xenical, in the supermarket, with every type of slimfast available.

Here's something for her...

STOP BEING SUCH A BLOODY GREEDY BITCH AND YOU WILL LOSE WEIGHT!!!

After going to a all you can eat carvery, and she had 4 big dinners, 2 puds and took a third one home, it isnt any wonder she is big!!!

Right I have got that off my chest!!! pmsl

dont give up

Met two lovely ladies in the gym they had been sent by their GP's, one was really chatty.

She was 60 years old, had heart trouble, one steel knee and had surgery on the other, and has a colostomy bag, and she was a terrible flirt with Ste, the hunky trainer!!

She had me in stitches.

No matter what life throws at you, never give up, as there is always someone with worse problems than you.

I feel so much better after going, and am looking forward to my next trip!!

Yeah, me, looking forward to going the gym??? Yeah I never though I would say that either!!! LOL

bah humbug

Have been out with someone I thought was a mate. We went to one of those 'all you can eat' buffets.

She sees them as a challenge. Today she really gorged herself. It was quite sickening to be honest. She then spent half an hour in the loos. It turns out, her doc had given her xenical, and she sees it as a licence to eat as much as she wants, and still be able to lose weight. She was rather nasty when her boyfriend asked her to cool it.

She also said that she would be at my home at 9.30am in the morning, and we would go power walking. This is something she arranges regularly since christmas, but has only been 3 times so far.

I have just been into my emails, and there is one from her, demanding to know what tablets I was taking, as I couldnt possibly have lost so much weight on my own.

Arrgghh!!! Just cos she doesnt show, doesnt mean I didnt go out walking. I am careful with what I am eating, and stop when I feel full.

she went on to say that her boyfriend thought I was looking good, and have obviously put in some hours working out.

She has a serious issue at the moment, but I dont know where to turn to get her help. It is apparent that her GP is useless, if he gave her the tablets. Her boyfriend said that she has told the GP she is trying her hardest to lose weight, and nothing works, He did all the usual blood tests, said her cholesterol was 7.9, and she said it runs in the family!!! Thats when he gave her the xenical!

I really dont need this crap, and feel unable to spur her on anymore. I am hitting my head against the wall with her.

Also she said that she had tried the WW chat boards, but didnt get any usable advice, and was accused of being a troll cos she disagreed with someone!!

I wont tell her that I am a frequent visitor to the chat boards!! LOL

the gym

Well, I went the gym, yeah, I know what you mean, Ann and the gym, never in a million years, but I did go.

And loved it!!!

Got a very hunky trainer, Ste, who was lovely.

He had me in stitches, especially when lying on my front, with these boobs, I just couldnt get my chin down to the floor, he threatened to sit on my back if I didnt, I tried telling him it just wasnt going to go, when he got down on the floor at the side of me, and said 'yeah, I can see your problem'.

Well, off I went again, and I dont know if my ribs are hurting from laughing or the exercises.

I did the rower, 1000 metres, did 20 mins on the bike, and what nearly killed me, 10 mins on the cross trainer. I thought my knees were going to pop!!!


Oh well, am going friday afternoon, would go tomorrow but it is Vinnie's funeral.

what a prat

Yep, me!!! Cant believe the idiotic things I have done!!!

I will learn along the way, how to input pics in here, when I get the courage to do it.

I see so many with their pics, and wonder why cant I post some?? But there again, I have always been camera shy, from being a little girl, my Dad used to say I was re-incarnated Red Indian, thinking white mans magic box was going to steal my soul. not that I have that left, I sold it!!! pmsl

You will get used to my humor along the way, and the fact that I am the first to put myself down.

So here we go, after another blip on the journey, I am getting my sad act together!!! LOL

Thought I had lost this. flippin heck, how can you lose a blog FFS!!!!

Have plucked up the courage and joined the gym today, the induction is wednesday. No excuses now, I need to get this weight off.

feel defeated

Well,went for a weigh in, despite pointing like a demon, and going for very long walks, brisk walks that is, I lost nothing, nada, zilch not a bloody bean.

Loads weighing in after me were getting the same result.

Now are the scales faulty, as both Boots and my own were showing a loss??

Needless to say, everything went went to the wall for a couple of days.

Why do we do this??

Day two

God, this is going to get tedious, doing it as days, I wonder if I can get the bloke
from BB to do a voice over??? 'Day two, and Ann-Marie is bloomin useless' or something like that. LOL

Been for a good walk round town, for a good hour, really missed having a good walk and a toot in shop windows.

Still job hunting too, but fed up of what I go for, kids are employed as they are cheaper. I am the wrong side of 18 on 2 counts!!!LOL

Day one

What do I say, well I have decided that doing this may help stick to the straight and narrow!!!