someone please give me a kick!

I go and see the gynae on the 9/9/09.

I wanted there to be a big difference in my weight from seeing them in January. Just one bloomin stone! is all I have lost!! And that is from the injections they gave me to shut my ovaries down, as I have severe pcos, and my hormones were so far out of alignment I suffered from cluster migraines, but without a day off for over a year, as one was going, another was coming in, with the pain only varying in strength. (before the injections, I struggled to lose 2 stone in 2 years)

The migraine came back nearly 3 weeks ago, when the injections started to wear off, so I havent had a day off from pain, and my weight has gone up a bit too, despite going to the gym 3 times a week, for an hour at a time, plus walking there and back too!!!

So am starting core today, and seeing if that can help, but I fear it wont do any good, as my body doesnt work like it should.

Now when I go back, will they re-start the injections for another 9 months, or will they say sod it, and do a total hysterectomy?? I dont care either way to be honest. They had to confer with a specialist in London to find treatment as it was! It was some big shot in London that told them to give me the injections!!


Arrgghhh I hat my body!!! Why wont it work properly??

buggered it up again!!!

Sorry, but ballsed it up again!!!

I seem to be doing the drunkards way of losing weight, 3 lbs on, one pound off!!! Not exactly true, just stayed the same for the last 2 weeks, after using advice given, and having a blow out, and gaining instead of boosting my loss!!! aarrggghhh

Doesnt help that the injections are definitely wearing off, and I have been getting pains similar to period pains, oh well, maybe it wont be long before I actually get a period, havent had one since January!! bliss!! lol

Joined the Christmas Countdown Challenge to buck me up, but feel that I am disappointing the team be have had a sts this week. Eh?? First week and I get a sts. bugger.

I really need the bloke that does the big brother voice over to read this to you, it may make it more exciting!! pmsl

what a day

I am sat here, in tears.

I have had about 6 points today. Really sick. My head is fit to burst, and the gynae doesnt see it as an emergency, and I have to wait till my appointment in september, all the while I am existing in agony. I cant say living, as my life is on hold again.

I really cant go on like this anymore.

I know being upset is making the migraine worse, I have got the aura closing in on my left eye. Pretty soon I will lose my vision to it.

What if they wont give me the injections again??? Surely they wont stop the treatment that obviously works?? Will they???

I cant get to the gym in this condition, I am unsteady enough on my feet, never mind risking going in the car.


And to top it all, my neighbour is having her floor repaired, and they have been banging most of the day, and the noise and vibrations are going right through the house. Worse thing about living in a Victorian Terrace!!!


At least I may lose weight with not being able to eat - hang on - no I wont - this is me we are talking about. I could be in the Matrix with no mouth, and still pjut on bloomin weight!

sorry

Sorry it has been a while since I posted something. The shit has hit the fan as they say. Been trying to understand why someone I thought I knew, would go to such desperate lengths as to do Celeb slim, slimfast and alli, all at once, with no food whatsoever.

Really threw me off plan, I can tell you.

I didnt expect it from her, and she kept her distance so I wouldnt catch on to what she was doing, so I couldnt stop her.

Oh well, she is home now, and is seeing a shrink for help, and blames her gp for putting her under so much pressure to slim down.

Anyway, back to my task. I am so pissed off at the mo, as despite going to the gym 2/3 times a week, and writing absolutely everything that I eat or drink, I have sts for the last 5 weeks.

So fed up, I really am, all that effort for nothing!!!!

So if anyone knows why...... answers on a postcard please!!!! lol

Seriously, I dont know what to do for the best. I am working my hardest and getting no reward for the hard work, and at times is is such a bloody slog to go to the gym, and I did not enjoy it yesterday, I still put my all into the sessions, as what is the point of paying and not working hard???


uurrrgggghhhh such is life I suppose.

well we shall try again

Been on my hols, on a canal boat through the midlands. Been to Rugeley, Stafford, Burton on Trent just to give you the general location of where we traveled. Got back saturday at just before 4pm, and had washing on the line by half 5!!! Have eaten my wat round the midlands, saw Ice Age 3 and Transformers 2, and have got sunburn, which is still a bit painful, and a monster of a cold sore on my bottom lip - question?? if sunshine causes cold sores to flare up, why are they called cold sores??

Am not feeling too good though, have got headache, very bad mood swings, and am now feeling very teary. Have been the waling dustbin all day.

Have put weight on, sneaky peek confirmed it. Have had to get a belt for my pants though as nearly lost them!!!

here we go again

Well, today has been a shit day.

Got up with a bloody migraine!!! AGAIN!! The damn injections were supposed to stop them, and the monthly injections were doing the job nicely, then the hospital talked me into having the injection that lasted 3 months, and the migraines are back.

So not happy. Not been through the door all day, dont know if I am going to go to the gym tomorrow, as they usually last for a couple of days.

AARRGGGHHH!!! I have had enough. Ended up with hubby going to the chinese for tea, so have had beef fried rice and curry. So not WW friendly.

Plus mum-in-law has been, wanting hubby to print some pictures off for her, all 65 of them, and we dont have any ink in our printer so couldnt do it, and she was ossing for me to take her to town tomorrow, but I didnt bite to any of the hints. Sorry, I am not usually a bitch, but after taking her to every hospital appointment, plus swimming most of last year, she is going swimming with someone else, and has never asked me to go with them. My hubby reckons it is cos I wont go into a pub/cafe/restaurant for lunch after. I dont see the point in doing that, nor can I afford to do so. She had a big pub lunch of lasagna and garlic bread with a muffin for afters, all for the lovely calorie count of 3500!!! When they are going for lunch 4 days a week, she is having at least 4 days extra calories a week, and she wonders why she is piling the weight on! And she is diabetic, and has had heart surgery, plus was given a 3 month course of xenical, from which she only lost 4 lbs!!!


Sorry, had a really bad day, and needed to rant a bit

stunned

Yep, I am!!!

I was in the gym for 10am this morning!! Yeah, I know, me and the gym and early morning, never gonna happen, but it did!!! LOL

Oh well, I keep trying.

And my so called mate didnt even have the calls to apologise for her behaviour.

She said that I didnt know how hard it was to lose weight, yeah right, she knows it took me 2 years to lose 2 stone, and have managed another stone so far this year, yet, I dont know how hard it is to lose weight!!

Seeing as she has known me for 20 years, and she knows I have struggled with my weight due to illness, it beggars belief!!!

And there she was, even after the quack has put her on xenical, in the supermarket, with every type of slimfast available.

Here's something for her...

STOP BEING SUCH A BLOODY GREEDY BITCH AND YOU WILL LOSE WEIGHT!!!

After going to a all you can eat carvery, and she had 4 big dinners, 2 puds and took a third one home, it isnt any wonder she is big!!!

Right I have got that off my chest!!! pmsl